Sometimes his success at fooling himself surprised him. At least in those rare moments, when he was honest. Paul stood on the balcony, looking down onto all those upturned faces, each radiating with an almost greedy eagerness to receive what he was about to give. The Governor’s trust in him dulled an ache within that he had nursed his whole life. So if he had to put on a bit of show to make the old man proud, that’s what he would do.